I’m realizing something lately, I’m changing. Not sure to becoming what yet, but still human, don’t worry. None of those meta-human transitions where I magically acquire superpowers (I wish). And it’s normal, nothing out of the ordinary. Other than it seems too…drastic (Don’t go yet, hear me out).
I used to be left-brain dominant. No surprise there, coming from a dysfunctional family who are mostly emotionally unavailable. Had to work on feeling instead of just thinking I feel something. Lately though, I’m sensing I’m becoming more emotional. Still thinking over anything else, but the feelings, or emotions, come to mind first. Like a snapshot or a page out of a picture book. It’s unusual, resulting in a lot of draft posts, new potted plants or some sweat sessions from running around the block at best and/or some sleepless nights at worst. Hmmm…
I’m not sure if this is common for someone who just got married, but possibilities and future plans and merging goals keep me up late sometimes. Is this wedding jitters, arriving late to the party..? Don’t get me wrong, I like being married. And I loved being single, but I was ready to move from that stage in life for some time already.
Am I worrying too much..? Nah, never was a worrywart.
But future plans (and adulting) do seem a bigger deal lately i.e. starting a family involving major bodily changes, travel plans vs. mortgage payments, etc. Water please..
How did I handle transitions..?
I used to take time outs; I’d go on a trip and or spend more time with my planner, coffee in hand. Coming up with some mental pictures, some goals and at least something to look forward to eases me up. I’d talk about it with a few people after I’m all relaxed. I guess I have to change it up a bit now that I have a hubby to consult (ideally) or just tell it to (haha).
How about you, how do you handle transitions?